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Saturday, February 28, 2009

February 28, 2009--219 Pounds

I need to walk about 3 miles each day this weekend and maybe I can get to 218 to start the next work week. The weather is fairly nasty today and I really need to finish the basketball photos so I can burn those DVDs, but is that an excuse to not take 50 minutes to walk 3 miles?

The big challenge of the weekend comes tonight. There's an engagement celebration for the daughter of a friend and it runs from 6 to 9. I'll take my camera and really should be there for the entire 3 hours to take photos. In those 3 hours I can drink and eat less than 500-600 calories, or I can graze all night and consume between 2,000-3,000 calories. Twenty-four hours from now, I won't feel different depending on which I do, so the key is to get through those 3 hours with some willpower and don't set back my dieting efforts by a day or two.

Friday, February 27, 2009

January 27, 2009--220.5 Pounds

I woke up between 12 and 1 last night and I was both wide awake and hungry. My choice was to do nothing and probably not ge back to sleep, or eat something. I ate a can of pineapple, only 320 calories, but 20 oz of mostly fluid. That plus getting up at 4:20 to weigh because I'm going walking was enough to put me over 220 again. It's not something to worry about, but I need a good weekend and Monday needs to be under 219.

Thursday, February 26, 2009

February 26, 2009--219.5 Pounds

It's nice to get under 220. Now to stay under 220 and to reach and go under the biggest setpoing it have, the 215 pound mark. I'd like to reach that by the middle of March so it will give me the opportunity to make 210 before my speech and my physical.

The big thing yesterday was in the evening. I went to Nick's, had 3 light beers for 300 calories, only a small handful of nuts as we were getting ready to leave, and a bowl of pineapple for supper. There no reason that Wednesday night needs to include a 1,000 calories or more from the bowl of nuts followed by a trip through the Wendy's drive-thru.

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

February 25, 2009--220.5 Pounds

Nothing new to report. I've been walking some at break time and lunch and eating less--who knew that a combination like that might help someone lose weight?

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

February 24, 2009--221.5 Pounds

Walked 3.5 miles yesterday and didn't eat a lot. I'm not eating a lot and I'm not really thinking a lot about calories and such.

I did have this thought about calories. Just using round numbers that are actually on the low side, a pound of fat supposedly has about 3,000 calories. A typical person probably uses no more than 2,500 calories a day. Again to use round numbers, lets say that I need to lose 40 pounds which would put me at a reasonable 181.5 pounds. Let's do the math:

(40 pounds) x (3,000 calories) = 120,000 extra calories I'm carrying around

(120,000 calories) divided by (2,500 calories per day) = 48 day supply of energy

I'm carrying around 7 weeks of stored food as a reserve for what? Does this make any sense to anyone? It is totally pointless from a practical point of view and life would be so much better without the burden of carrying around the huge surplus of energy.

Monday, February 23, 2009

February 23, 2009--221.5 Pounds

I really should have gotten some walking in over the weekend. I get home and the computer gets turned on and there I stay for most of the weekend. It's not all editing photos. I was keeping up with the Millsaps baseball webcast and the live stats for basketball. I had to write a couple of blog posts. There's some goof off time. To be honest, there's no excuse for not having walked. That was my bad for the weekend and the good was that I really kept the eating in check.

Combining walking and keeping the food intake down might allow me to break through the 220 barrier by the end of February. I haven't been in the 2-teens in quite a while.

Sunday, February 22, 2009

February 22, 2009--223.5 Pounds

Not bad. I was sidetracked a little last night by the neighbors on the other side of the duplex. They like to cook and they do it very well. Lately, when there's a knock on the back door I know it is one of the neighbors with a plate of food that they just fixed up for supper. Last night it was "Chicken a la King" and a very rich mixture of creamed corn that put Del Monte to shame. I really wish they didn't bring food over because of the diet, but at the same time it is nice that they bring food over. It's always something that you'd be pleased to get at a high priced, high quality restuarant. And it's almost always something with a high caloric value.

I need to do really well today. It will help me stick to my diet plan if there's no knock at the back door.

Saturday, February 21, 2009

February 21, 2009--222.5 Pounds

I see that I forgot to post yesterday. For what it's worth, yesterday was 225 pounds.

That makes yesterday's drop 2.5 pounds which has happened before, especially after a big day of eating or a day of eating supper later than usual--namely, just about every Wednesday. In this case, I think the drop was also due to a new plan, something that is really a reinforcement of an old plan. My past approach has been to come up with a plan, lay it out on the blog, and then fail to follow the plan. This time I'll take the opposite approach. I have a new plan, we'll see if I follow it and if it works, and then I'll give the details.

I'll be at the home computer most of this weekend editing the photos from last week and keeping up with Millsaps basketball and baseball on the road, so any weight lower than 222.5 on Monday will be a very good sign.

Thursday, February 19, 2009

February 19, 2009--225.5 Pounds

Not an unusual jump after a Wednesday night. I came to work thinking, "What if a person really did cut back on what they ate so that hunger was the trigger for eating and nothing else?". Add to that, "What if a person really did eat half of what they normally would when they did get hungry?". It would have to be a formula for guaranteed weight loss and a fairly good rate.

Those are two of the three rules in my "3 Rule Diet" with the other rule being to always eat when you are hungry. It's 7:45 right now and I'm not hungry even though I haven't eaten today. Why should I eat now and why should I eat more than a 100-calorie low fat yogurt when I do feel hungry? This is not about pain or sacrifice, it is about seeing food as a fuel and realizing that the body already has a lot of excess fuel stored up for most of it's daily needs.

I believe I can make it through 1 day of the "3 Rule Diet" and if I can do that then I can make it through a week. Who knows, maybe I can change my way of looking at food. It all starts with making it through 1 day.

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

February 18, 2009--223.5 Pounds

Yesterday wasn't a bad day and it wasn't a great day. I plan on going to the Wednesday get together this evening so maybe this would be a good day for no candy from the bowls placed around the office. I can do that for one day and this needs to be the day--I'll report my success or failure on that tomorrow morning.

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

February 17, 2009--224 Pounds

Today would be a good day to cut back on the eating. I still have time to get to 210 by the end of March or I can keep on my current path and I'll still be in the 223-227 range. That's not where I need to be.

Monday, February 16, 2009

February 16, 2009--223 Pounds

I tried to do much better yesterday so the 223 was only a little bit of a surprise instead of a huge shock. Right now my weight is bouncing around primary because of what I ate the day before, not from any real weight loss. The day I get below 220 pounds is the day that I'll know some progress is being made.

In a related bit of news, I actually slept through the night yesterday, a full 8 hours of sleep. It seems like I can count the number of times that happens in a year on my fingers, maybe the fingers on one hand. I don't know if this will be a trend and maybe I was simply that exhausted from the weekend, but it might have been attitude. At 9 last night I decided I needed a good night's sleep and the photos could wait until Monday. It was very relaxing to be able to make that decision. Normally I go to bed worried about all the things I have piled up in the "to do" stack, but last night I didn't have those worries. The pile is still there and there isn't enough time to do everything, but I got a full night of sleep and that will be helpful in taking on the tasks.

Saturday, February 14, 2009

February 13, 2009--226 Pounds

Friday the 13th wasn't unlucky, it was just full of "situations" and bad decisions. The only good decision was walking about 3.6 miles with Boty in the morning.

After the walk, I somehow got home, showered and dressed, and left for work earlier than usual. I thought "what the heck", I'm going to get some French Toast sticks at Burger King--I haven't stopped at a BK in months for a breakfast treat. Then at lunch, I met Boty and a mutual friend for lunch at a Mexican resturant and it was great fun and great food. Just more food than I needed. That led to the decision to skip supper before going to Millsaps at 5, which of course led to justifying eating junk at the concession stand. And finally, I had about 1,300 photos from the Millsaps events (there was a lot going on) and I needed to stay up till midnight or 1 working on the photos. For some reason, I thought a late and big meal from Wendy's would help me stay up--it turns out that it didn't help and I crashed around 11.

All I can do now is really be strict on the food today and hope that the weight drops back down to 224 or so for tomorrow morning. I can't let things creep out of control. Now, it 5:15 and I have to start on the photos--maybe it would help keep me alert if I'd find a bag of popcorn.

Friday, February 13, 2009

February 13, 2009--224 Pounds

An early weigh-in. It's 4:45 and I'm heading out the door to walk about 4 miles with Boty. More later (maybe).

Later: There's not much more to write. The track where we walk is really closer to 9/10's of a mile per lap so we walk about 3.6 miles in an hour. It's more about the talking than the walking anyway, and that would be especially true for Boty who is training for another marathon. He has a 14 mile run tomorrow which makes walking 3.6 miles somewhat insignificant in his exercise routine.

I'll be at Millsaps a lot this weekend and the rest of the time I'll be in front of a PC. Tonight there are two basketball games with each team doing a presentation for Senior Night, plus it is the annual "Take A Kid To The Game" night with all the activities that go along with this special event. My new camera was giving me trouble at the last baseball game and I'm afraid that it is going to need a replacement of the shutter mechanisms. I'll have my old camera as a backup, but the new one is so much better for indoors.

Saturday, I'll be at the first conference baseball game, and then Sunday it will be the last home basketball games of the season. The main thing I need to do is get the photos. I'll figure out later how to find the time to edit them. It's not the kind of schedule that lends itself to losing weight, but I'll do the best that I can.

Thursday, February 12, 2009

February 12, 2009--223 Pounds

Whoops! I decided to sleep an extra 10 minutes today and then I was busy right from the start when I got to work.

There was one of these Yahoo Health stories yesterday that listed 5 things in your life that might be derailing your diet efforts. The first one was lack of sleep and that sure fits for me. Then there was stress and while I'm not a stressful kind of guy, I do feel the constant pressure of getting the photos done. A third factor was loneliness. I don't see myself as lonely because I somewhat like time spent by myself. I do feel that my life gets too isolated, going to ball games but not visiting with people because I'm working and then spending all of those hours at home editing photos.

I can't remember the 4th factor, but the 5th things was something about how dieting may be derailing your diet. It was something along the lines of making a decision to eat no candy causes you to fixate on candy all day. It would be better if you made moderation's in your behavior instead of a drastic change. I get their point but I'm already somewhat fixated on candy all day--that's why I need to diet.

On the other hand, it has been relaxing to not have any set plan that I'm trying to follow, and therefore a plan where I can fail. I'm trying to cut back on what I eat and I'm trying to eat a little better. I walked at both break times yesterday and at lunch for a total of 3.5 miles. All I need to do is do the right things and my weight will start to fall and maybe not being so fixated on a diet is just what I need.

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

February 11, 2009--223.5 Pounds

Plan or no plan, I still have an urgent need to lose weight, to get back some strength, and to improve my health. The key is obviously to eat less and to eat better. Adding exercise is a factor that should be worked on, but it requires time and sometimes that's hard to find. Eating less doesn't mean more time and eating better doesn't have to mean more time if I do a little thinking.

Just for motivation, let's revisit the key things coming up where vanity may push me towards some success:

--March 28 is the award presentation at Millsaps.
--Early April is my physical.
--In June is my high school 40th reunion.
--In July I'll see a lot of folks in Dallas who only see me once a year.
--In July I'll see a lot of folks at the Strong Reunion who only see me once a year.

Sure, vanity should take a backseat to improved health and a better quality of life, but we need to use whatever it takes to stick to a habit of eating less and moving more. Assuming that I plan to lose the weight some day, why not lose it now in time for all of the above events?

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

Feeling Better and 224.5 Pounds

I was able to sleep last night from about 11 to now, which is 4:30. That's a start. Right now I'm up because of the need for more cold medicine and maybe it will kick in while I write, allowing me to go back to bed and sleep an extra 20 minutes before getting up for work. It will probably be a work till noon day and then home to bed before getting up to work on photos.

Mentally I'm doing better. Somehow I will get to May. There's always a way, there's always something that can be dropped to make the time or I can do less at Millsaps or something. It's fortunate that my ability to hang on to emotions is so stunted. On rare occasions I will get depressed like this past weekend, but stronger emotions have a hard time lasting very long with me and most of the depression has gone.

As for the diet and this blog, I'll keep posting my weight and I'll keep trying to lose some weight. It might be a relief to not have a plan. We know the plans weren't successful in helping me lose weight. We'll never know if the plans were successful in keeping me from gaining weight. Trying to stick with a specific plan and failing has been frustrating and maybe no plan will be the best plan if I continue to monitor my weight each day. No plan without monitoring my weight would be a disaster--I'm smart enough to know that much about myself.

It's 4:40 now. I'll go put a CD in the player and see if I can fall off to sleep for about an hour. That will do me more good than trying to edit photos for an hour even though that needs to be done. There will be time for that later in the day.

Monday, February 9, 2009

Waving the White Flag

You should know right from the start that I'm sick and I've had a terrible weekend. The current sickness is a sore throat, sneezing, congestion--just feeling punk. When I went to the store and bought cold medicine, I bought the one marked "Severe". That's how it feels to me.

In reality, I've been sick for about a month. It comes and goes where I can feel a slight fever and the exhaustion gets to the point where I leave work early to go home and nap or the first thing I do when I get home is get in bed for a couple of hours. Calling it a sickness is probably wrong. It's just exhaustion and never being able to catch up.

There are things I could have done different. A lot of what I've been doing lately isn't just Millsaps as I've taken photos at the Convention Complex and the CD Release party. I helped Isabelle move furniture and I briefly helped my neighbor move furniture, two things that I was glad to do. I've spent some time on Facebook, something I've enjoyed but it does involve time. If I had done none of these things, done nothing for myself, then I probably wouldn't be so tired, but what kind of life am I leading.

Saturday morning I was tired, frustrated, angry and depressed. Mother's car battery went dead Friday so she called me and left a message on the cell phone when I was at the Millsaps game. I was too tired to fix it Friday so I'd have to do it early Saturday because my plans called for photographing the Millsaps tennis match at 11. Things didn't go well. I didn't have the tool needed to reach the screw hidden deep in the motor that held the battery down. Twice I had to go to the store to buy the right tool, then I had to take the battery to swap and reinstall the new one. Time ticked away, and finally I realized that there would be no way to make the tennis.

Somewhere in all this it hit me that taking time to change the battery wasn't eating into my time. I have very little time left. The battery took away time from the Millsaps tennis team. And photographing the tennis team was going to take away time from the baseball and basketball photos that needed to be edited. I have very little time left that is my own and when I take some time to do things like taking photos of bands, it puts me in a state of exhaustion.

So what does all that bitching have to do with dieting. Nothing and everything. If dieting were a breeze then everyone would be thin. I'm trying to diet almost as an afterthought while doing so many things that make it more difficult. I get exhausted so I eat to try and work a little longer on the photos. I stand for several hours at a sporting event so my back and hip hurt and walking or jogging becomes difficult. I'm always stressed, a nice trigger for wanting food. I don't sleep well thanks to the hip and stress, so that leads to odd eating habits plus exhaustion, and the exhaustion leads to the eating so I can work a little longer on the photos.

There's a part of me that says I still should be able to diet despite all of the above. If I'll just find the right plan and stick with it, I can lose weight despite all that is going on around me. I'm tired of trying plans and failing, and every one of them has failed. Maybe what I need is no plan, just weighing myself every morning and trying to do the best I can in whatever way during that particular day. That will work as well as anything else I've tried over the last year.

As for the blog, I don't know what I want to do. Maybe tomorrow I'll be out from under this cold and I'll feel 100% different, ready to combine all previous plans into a super plan that absolutely is guaranteed to work. Or maybe I'll stop writing until the time comes when I'm truly ready to follow a plan. I don't know. For now, I need to do some work--I got to the office at 5:30 to check on some backups and start some backups. The plan is to leave by 8:30 and go home to bed. With a little luck and a little rest, maybe I won't be so low tomorrow.

Sunday, February 8, 2009

No Pain, No Loss--Day 10

Whenever I unexpectedly miss a post people start to worry so here's a post to let you know that I'm still alive. I'm not well, but I'm alive.

For the last few days I've had a combination sore throat/stopped up head thing, something I've had in the past many times. About all I can do is let it run it's course and I'll be better in two or three days. Of more concern is that over the last few weeks I've often felt traces of a slight fever. It's not much, not even getting to the standard 98.6 since my normal temperature is in the 96's. It comes and it goes, not enough to make me think that I need treatment or that it is anything other than a side effect of exhaustion.

The exhaustion is something I'm simply choosing to ignore at the moment, treating it with naps whenever the fatigue gets too bad. I know that's not enough and I'm working on finding ways to cut back on the inflow of work--at the moment there's no plan that tells me how I'm going to deal with the backlog that already exists. Somehow, someway, someday, it will all get done. And give me a few days and let this cold pass and I'll be in better spirits about my life.

Friday, February 6, 2009

No Pain, No Loss--Day 8--223 Pounds (3.5 lbs lost)

It's 4:35, I'm meeting Boty to walk at 5. More to come later.

Back from walking and now I'm at work so I'll be quick. The results so far have been good. The effort has been spotty. There's been way too much eating in anticipation of being hungry instead of eating when I'm hungry. Plus, there's been too much nibbling on valentine candy which is scattered throughout the building. When I got to work this morning I started to grab two or three Hersey's Kisses as I passed one of the tables with a candy bowl. My reach stopped at the midway point and then I thought about the need for a little pain if I want to be successful. It did pain me a little to walk away from the chocolate, but I'll live.

Thursday, February 5, 2009

No Pain, No Loss--Day 7--224 Pounds (2.5 lbs lost)

It wasn't a great day from the results or the effort point of view. It happens, and it especially happens when I get exhausted and the whole day seems to be focused on getting to the end of the day. The only way I made it to the Wednesday night get together was by taking off at 3 and going home for a nap.

Naps are a wonderful thing, especially when they are a pleasant little pick me up during the day. The problem with me is that my naps come when it's either a nap in bed or falling asleep at the desk. It's not an age problem--haven't we been reading the same stories lately in regards to high school students who are working more and more hours during the school year? It's a problem of trying to cram too many things into too few hours. That's my problem and while there is an easy solution on the surface, there's no easy solution in reality.

Wednesday, February 4, 2009

No Pain, No Loss--Day 6--222.5 Pounds (4 lbs lost)

Yesterday was a really great day and not just because of the loss of a pound. We had our combo January/February office birthday party and the Break Room was filled with goodies. I hardly ate anything at the party and while I did nibble on some chocolate in the afternoon, that wasn't bad because I skipped lunch when I ran an errand and walked 2 miles. Several of us also walked at afternoon break so my total for the day was near 3 miles.

While I'm more concerned about the effort and not the number on the scale each morning, this did surprise me a little. After trying to get photos done ASAP yesterday evening, I didn't eat supper till close to 9 and that was a frozen pizza and light beer (about 800 calories total). That's a late supper and I weighed in at 3:30 this morning because I can't sleep (hip hurts) and I might as well work on photos. A 5:30 weigh in would have been 222 pounds or maybe even 221.5--since I'm still guzzling the diet sodas, a couple of hours extra before weighing makes a difference.

The goal today is to have a great day before going to Nick's, allow myself 3 light beers and absolutely no nuts (it is easier to eat nothing than count on being able to make a reasonable decision), and then eat a small supper like a can of chili. I need to get up tomorrow and expect to see this 222.5 once again.

Tuesday, February 3, 2009

No Pain, No Loss--Day 5--223.5 Pounds (3 lbs lost)

Today is a huge day, really the first major test of my new attitude. It's the office birthday party for workers born in January and February. There will be enough items in the Break Room for every employee to feast on at least 3,000 empty calories. In the past, I've probably gone over that number, thanks to a full plate, a carry out snack as I leave the party, and then grazing all day.

This is where making the decision to eat nothing is easier to follow than trying to make reasonable decisions. I won't make reasonable decisions if I get started and this would then become one of those days that unravels several days of good effort. The others will party, I will eat my yogurt, and tomorrow I hope to find my reward when I step on the scale.

Monday, February 2, 2009

No Pain, No Loss--Day 4--224.5 Pounds (2 lbs lost)

I know it seems like I'm going to wrong way because of that unreasonable loss after one day. I'm not concerned about the weight as I am about the attitude and approach I'm taking towards dieting. This past weekend wasn't too bad except for one thing: NO ENOUGH PAIN! Pain is a relative term. What I'm looking for are hunger pains that are really just discomforts that let you know it is time to eat. I still have too much eating in anticipation of being hungry soon. Some of that was my situation over the weekend of being at places like Hal & Mal's where getting food wasn't a good option.

For now, what I need to do is get busy and get going. I'm down to one yogurt in the work refrigerator and I need to stop at WalMart on the way into work.

Sunday, February 1, 2009

No Pain, No Loss--Day 3-- 224 Pounds (2.5 lbs lost)

I've given yesterday's effort the very dangerous label of "Not Bad Considering", or NBC for short. It may be a bad idea to even consider this a legitimate label since it's easy to want to label every day NBC. In most cases, the idea will be to stay out of situations where "considering the situation" isn't a factor. That sounds good until you realize that most of my situations are about doing projects and doing for others. I don't want to say no to these things just because I need to lose weight.

Today I'll sit at the PC most of the day, taking a break to iron some clothes for the work week or to at least clean up some. Nothing fun about any of that and it would be easy to try and justify extra eating. This doesn't qualify as an NBC day. Next weekend, I'll be at Millsaps a lot with the opening of tennis and baseball season. I'll have a hurried schedule, I'll be tired, and Wendy's will be the closest food source along with the baseball concession stand. That will not qualify as an NBC day. I can't let this source of erosion into the diet.

Yesterday truly was different. Here's what I did, the situation, and what I ate:

--Got up early, worked on the PC, had some popcorn.
--Went to help Isabelle move items from the apartment to the house, working from 9 to 3, had a small burger and small frosty for lunch and a job-well-done light beer when we finished.
--Home for a nap, maybe had popcorn, who knows.
--Going out to the CD release party. Small burger, small fries at Wendy's at 8:30. There will be no food at Hal and Mal's that fits my diet or photography schedule. Stayed at Hal and Mal's till midnight, had one light beer.
--Needed to work on files before going to bed at 1:20. Had popcorn and a light beer for a job-well-done (it was a job well done and I deserved that beer).
--Wish I could have slept late and maybe my weigh-in would have been better. Hip was bothersome (I wonder why) so I got up at 7 to write this and work on photos. Today is a day that I have to honestly follow the 3 rule diet.